Throw Back Tuesday before the birth of my kid
This is for you Rachel.
Got the abortion pill two days ago. Finished the second part today and oh my shit I felt like throwing myself down some stairs. Kind of upset that they want me to come back for a follow up to make sure everything went well. The whole reason why I got the abortion is I literally can’t fit time in my life for another kid. I am booked with grooms for the next three weeks. And of course they wanted me to come in on a Saturday. They just want an ultrasound to make sure it worked. Look. I’ll figure out if it didn’t work. Believe me, give me a few months I’ll know. I can’t take any appointments off on a Saturday.
I puked so much today and couldn’t keep anything down. The contractions were getting worse and worse. Shit was coming out of me left and right and I could feel myself slipping off of the toilet. Awful. Just awful. All 9 months rolled into a few hours. And that’s why I don’t want another kid. Besides ya know having a kid, pregnancy is awful. All these idiots who are like oh you will miss being pregnant. Like hell I will. I live for puking and needing to eat every hour to sustain regular body functions. I love needing to ear table spoons of sugar so I don’t pass out. Love it. Never mind the actual kid.
Its scientific actually that we only like the kids we have (most of the time) because of our hormones. Maybe that makes me sound cold. I love my daughter but I cant handle another one. And that just makes me man enough to say so. Some people feel obligated to keep having them if they are pregnant. Why? So they can grow up poor just like you and have to deal with poverty, getting bullied for being poor and malnutrition? Nope
Going to the Dr next week to get the abortion pill since I’m two weeks pregnant. Between living in a 10x10 room with my husband and soon to be 2 year old and my crazy grooming schedule its hard to have another baby. I haven’t told anyone but my husband. He is supportive. We have a big savings but we are forced to buy a car and house cash since banks won’t lend to young self employed married people.
All of this just adds stress. I’ve cried way too much, and I’m exhausted. I pee like crazy. My sleep is interrupted every two hours. I feel like I’m going to pass out because of my blood sugar being low. And these symptoms weren’t this bad until four months pregnant before.
Dont mind the baby weight. Now do mind the awesome shirts muh boi - WANNABECOLOSSUS made.